Everything I start to write here tonight sounds like complaining. And I don't want to do that. I really don't see the point. If my attitude is my best asset at the moment, I'm determined to make it a good one. I'm posting this purely to fulfill my personal commitment to posting something each week. (I'm still -1, but I'll catch up.)
Things are a little rocky currently. We're working hard to right and restore the ship. Our crew of two is still in good spirits, but the boat's battered, these waters are choppy, and here there be dragons. Still, we are charting a new course, and we are hopeful. (OMG who knew I would leap to so much nautical imagery while trying to be a bit vague?)
My intention is to keep posting, even though I'm off by 1+ weeks now. That said, I have some bigger to-do list items on my agenda, and so my dreamed-of "thing a week" may be a touch less frequent. Or at the very least more opaque in subject matter. I'm still writing, almost every day (not counting the last three, I've been in bed with a bad bug). But what I'm writing isn't much for public consumption.
I'm writing myself a floatation device, or a compass, or a map. We cope in our own ways. And we are. No distress beacons just yet. But I know exactly where the flares are, and that's new for me.
I sat down to write a...something...earlier this week, and in the very spirit which I hope to combat with this "Thing a Week" project, I said to myself, in the whiniest inner voice I could possibly muster, "I DON'T WANNA." (Let's get real, there was some actual thrashing about, and then I got control of myself.)
So I started thinking of all the excuses I have ever used, thought of, fantasized about, fretted over, etc. etc. etc. and eventually as I purged them onto paper they became this thing that I then plunked out on the ukulele and have uploaded as proof that indeed, I did a Second Thing.
Next week: probably a blog post! In two or three-ish weeks, probably a podcast!
Purge your excuses here! Comment below with something crap you've told yourself as a means of avoiding a thing you've needed (or event WANTED) to do. Extra credit: share how you are working on turning that attitude around!!
A week or so before the start of 2019, I decided I wanted to make a thing a week. This is inspired primarily by Jonathan Coulton's project of the same name. He's great, and if you don't know his work yet, you should. (If you're even a casual listener to Ask Me Another, you're already familiar.)
I'm also inspired by all the amazing creative people I know. They've been working hard for hears to construct these epic Venn diagrams of life. They have the thing they do for money, the art they make when hired by others, and the art they make for themselves. Some of the most relentless artists are hired to make their own projects for money. That's the dream, and it takes a colossal amount of work to get there.
I'm *great* at helping other people. It's comforting to pretend this is because I'm naturally a selfless person who truly yearns to toil on behalf of others, but in reality I think three very different things are at play here:
Anyway. I'm tired of my old bullshit. I'm sad that I'm the one person I'm the least likely to show up for. And so I've declared an end to the practice in this shiny new year of 2019. (Also, there are a lot of ideas covered in cobwebs and noise up in my brain parts, and *not* Making Things has started to give me actual headaches that are only alleviated by productivity.)
All of this is to say, I'm doing a thing a week in 2019. Yes, the Thing this week is this blog post, but everyone has to start somewhere and I'm posting it before midnight on Jan 7th, so it counts.
Stay tuned. It may be blogs all the way down for January, but I'm planning 5-minute podcasts with interesting humans at least a couple of times a month after that. Occasionally I may even write and sing something. I do not promise that any of this will be good. I only commit to willing a thing a week into existence. We'll take it from there.
What projects are you committing to in 2019? What are you hoping to achieve? How do you talk down your internal critics?